The Black Box.

I knock the door. Nothing happens! Feels like forever. I wait. He is making me a cup of coffee - before he opens the door.  He sees my surprise!  He  - What, you are going to change your mind today? Well, I thought, you never say no so why did I need to wait! As I sit down I'm saying that I've had enough of writing my assignments, that I just want to be  'let off' He -  Is writing associated with coffee! I reply  - "No, just my sense of time has gone wrong, and I'm out of sync, things happening at a different speed..."  My voice trails away. He -   So have you finished your assignments? Me  - "Oh god, no. I wont be finished for ages yet. They are relentless, finish one, another begins" And then I'm explaining how our three years of assignments are squeezed into two years. I am exhausted, and on the verge of being insane. And I'm talking about Unit 13, counselling children and how much I dislike   Erik Erikson  (stages of develo...

Grey skies. Rain. I want to write to him and say...surely it doesn't have to be this way. For my heart really is breaking. He  - Hello -The usual? Me  - "The usual." Then questions about heating and lighting - I sigh.  I sound beaten. Done... It's over. And I say  - "I keep meaning to bring fairy lights..." He  - Is it that dark! Fairy lights in the therapy room. it would be like Christmas everyday wouldn't it Me  - "The ones at home are just little stars on copper wire" He  - Be nice if it was a children's therapy I think Me  - "Hmm, children would interact with them - but by 15 years old, it would probably be OK" He  - Yes - but a 15 year old would probably consider them childish He asks about my assignments, I talk about comparing the three modalities of psychodynamic , humanistic and CBT . We now seem to be at crossed purposes. He is arguing that CBT isn't on the 'same par' as psychodynamic or humanistic modalitie...

"See that's what I see as a potential sticking point.  In the sense that normally in this space,  nothing is off the table  really"    He  -  Light on or off? Me  -  "It is fine" He  -  Leave it on - there is plenty of sunlight - just not in here. The sun is over there Me  - Archaeoastronomy is one of my studies...I am aware of where the sun is - so I point in the opposite direction. -  "Over there..." He  -  Is it?- OK? Me  -  "For sure" He  -  It's not bending around the corner - So where are we going today? Me  -  "I thought I'd bring the table" I take a miniature table from my bag - it is actually one of those plastic things you get with a pizza. He  -  The table? Me  -  "There it is, there is the table" He  -  I'm confused - is that a table for elves, it is very small. Me   -  "It is a symbolic table." I put it on the floor between us...